But little by little, as you left your voice behind, the stars began to burn through the sheets of clouds, and there was a new voice which you slowly recognized as your own, that kept you company as you strode deeper and deeper into the world, determined to do the only thing you could do - determined to save the only life that you could save.

Mary Oliver

The Journey

The Journey 445 297 Tina Carson

A Paradigm Shift In A Distant Land

In mid 2018, I was invited to go to Sydney Australia to assist in setting up the music program for a new spiritual center that was getting ready to open. The duration was set for two months, and I was well on my way in accomplishing my mission within two weeks of arrival.

Just into the third week, the team that was organizing the new center decided to cancel the project. They were extremely generous to me by gifting me the rest of my stay. Obviously, a welcomed gift.

I had already experienced so much by attending as many events as I could and meeting gracious Aussies seemingly everywhere I went. I decided to continue this momentum. Before I left the States, I made an agreement with myself – that since I was going to the other side of the world, and didn’t know anyone, it would be an excellent and ultimate experience if I allowed myself to freely be me.

I did expect to have an experience that would heavily influence my life. What I didn’t expect, was to have multiple experiences that would change me forever.

A dear friend of mine sent this poem to me after a conversation where I attempted to describe what I was experiencing, what I was feeling, and what I was seeing in The Invisible.

I thought I was sounding crazy and she wasn’t understanding me. The expansion I was experiencing was both exhilarating and deeply lonely at the same time.

Then I read her text – and a warmth of understanding washed over me. Both from her, and from the writer, Mary Oliver.

There are times in our lives, whether we are at home, or in a distant land, that it feels as though we are utterly alone in our experience. In this attempt to be myself – I found myself. And realized, I never have to be alone again.

The Journey

MARY OLIVER

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice–
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do–
determined to save
the only life you could save.

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